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Sunday, September 6, 2009

True Confessions

A great big hug and a huge thank you for your prayers, encouraging comments and thoughts! Since my last blog, many of you have stepped in and given me a hand up. I have improved physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Last week my strength finally returned on Thursday. While visiting with my doctor on Wednesday (when I was feeling really bad), he made a comment about possibly having to cut back on my chemo. At that moment, that sounded like a plan to me! But as my strength began to return and I began to think with a little more clarity, I felt certain that I do not want to slow down. When we spoke on Friday I told him – “let’s don’t back off! Help me through the side effects, but let’s press on!” As I was talking with him I realized my apathy had been broken off.

I had a couple of divine appointments in the past week that really blessed me as well. Deana and her girls came by and brought some delicious dinner - and a beautiful basket of blessed water! (Picture to follow soon!) Another friend with a gift for healing, Junnine, set aside some time to pray with me. Thank you, friend. Healing manifesting! Progress made. Then another friend, Stacy brought food to my home and shared a vision she saw while praying for me. That vision is resonating inside me – confirming a new and deeper peace than I have previously known.

Then another friend asked me how I was today and out of my mouth came “Once I confessed, I began to feel better.”

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.
James 5:16

Sharing with you my struggle was really a form of confession. Once my struggle was revealed, prayer began to stir and the dark place that I was struggling with began to lift. My circumstances did not immediately change, but everything in my perspective did.

By the way… I do believe my circumstance is shifting. I believe my healing is manifesting and I am making progress.

It’s like rock climbing a high cliff. I had to overcome my fear, apathy and fatigue to reach up with all my might and get a new grip in order to pull myself up. Reaching out was overcoming. Gripping was confessing. The pulling up was easy – all my friends lifted me with prayer.

Truly this is a journey. Each day the sun comes up and I begin again. Each morning is a new opportunity - an opportunity to persevere, to believe, to share, to confess. I am so glad I told you, so glad you listened, so glad to be surrounded by amazing friends who hold me accountable and cheer me on. I’m contending from a new place tonight – more humble, more restful, and hopefully wiser.

If you find yourself in need of confession, then please, be quicker than me! Stop right now and confess to your Father and then with wisdom find a friend to tell. When you shine the light on the dark places you begin to receive your healing. I’m praying that God will provide the perfect friend, small group or safe place for you.

Thanks for sharing the journey with me.

Much love,


Lisa M said...

Praise God!! I'm glad you feel better. You just lay back and rest in the arms of your Father he is healing you and taking care of you. Thank you for being transparent. Let me know if I can help you with anything. I love you sweet freind.


Marissa Star said...

I'm praising that you are feeling better! I am thankful that through your writing we can be on this roller coaster of pressing in with you. When your down we are all pressing deeper into prayer with you and when we see victory we are all praising with you ... either way our hearts are WITH you!

Thanks for the exhortation to confess!!!

Be blessed highly favored daughter of the King!
Great Love,

Jay said...

I keep seeing you as a source of the Living Waters. I see it and received it as you pour out what Jesus is doing in you. As you share in your weakness, his strength and grace are being ever more manifested not only in your life, but to others as well. You are being transformed in your spirit person, as 2 Cor 3:18 says, "And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit."

Keep letting it flow, it is your healing sister. You are an instrument of His wonderful GRACE.

Blessings in Him,