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Friday, June 26, 2009

Too tired to post - or so I thought!

Hi friends,

Started early with another procedure to be sure my port was working correctly (all good news!). Then off to the doctor for another shot - which I didn't have to take because my bones were super producing white blood cells! I don't have to go back tomorrow either. Thank God. That shot makes your bones aches. I told them I'm healthy!

Then went to the wig shop. Met the most precious lady and got through with only one small burst of tears! Even got a scarf for the in between days. Amy was with me every moment. We took some pictures, but I'm too tired to post tonight. I'll try tomorrow.

Thanks to Julie Kavanaugh - who's going to be organizing some meal support - I'll have to get her email address to any of you that are interested. (I got to meet Lauren for the first time - what a beautiful child.) Lynnell Tysl came to see me too and brought me a beautiful bracelet to wear. Thanks girls for the gifts and for your hearts of service. After that, took a long nap which was yummy! Then tonight on top of everything else, Amy and my neighbor Tracy began to sort through the boys clothes. So much is happening around me and I'm just sitting in the recliner playing princess.

Then guess what? The guys from Flower Mound G8 showed up this afternoon to help put our back yard fence up that was blown down in the recent storms. Every need met by a heart of a servant.

Thanks to J. Fox for giving me some ideas on how to battle cancer with the word. I'm looking for three key scriptures to hang onto during this process. Amy and I have been reviewing all the great ones posted on facebook today. If you want to send a suggestion, please do so quickly. I want verses that will bring death to cancer and life to me.

Today the Lord is reminding me to give thanks in all things. To magnify His name. To draw near to His throne. Strength for the weary and hope for the hopeless. Please pray that I will be radiant with the presence of God as I am making new friends in a new place that I don't really want to be. I find the cancern center to be a very spiritual environment. There are no restrictions on conversations about prayer or God or hope or power. I'm not saying anything, yet everyone is talking to me about their faith. I'm so grateful that God brought me to this doctor - this clinic - this help. But nobody wants to join this club! Pray for me to submit to God's hand in this situation and that I would go through - rather than around - fully trusting Him in the wilderness to produce something amazing that will bring Him honor.

I gave thanks for you today!

Blessings abundant.



Unknown said...

Jan, know my heart and prayers are with you sweet lady!! I've seen other write that you are such and inspiration and I want to echo that. You always have such joy and encouragement. I so love your transparency in these blogs. Knowing those times when you're not feeling particularly joyful is important so we can intensify prayers of peace for you.

You are loved and treasured by so many because that's what you've sown in so many!

Love you,
Marci Elliott

Ashley said...

Jan, you are amazing. I love you and am so happy to hear that today went well for you. Still praying...

Yvonne said...

Sister! You are more than a radiant presence. You comfort me when I should be comforting you.

anbr1970 said...

Jan, you don't know me but I know u. I have been to pink impact for the last two years and you left such an impression on me. You are God's wonderful daughter. I am not sure why he makes us go through these trial and tribulations. I am going through my own trials also and at one point was mad at God BUT I have a dear friend April Franks who had "kicked" my butt per se. God is testing US!!! GGGRRR, I am not good at tests. But I have learned to be patient and see what he has for me. I pray that God speaks to his daughters everyday to give us the guidance for the day. I have found that journaling helps but there are days that I am in bed all day and therefore I just God for his understanding. I was in complete shock to here about you but think positive next years Pink Impact will be oh so sweet. Lots of prayers and love. Ann Bullard-Reyes

Anonymous said...

Jan, I just finished reading your blogs. We are praying for you. Try to keep your eyes and heart focused on Him. Love, Nancy Briggs

Nell Jones said...

Hi Jan,
Been thinking about you today and just wanted to share some comforting scripture that has been such a comfort to Jack and I since 2000 when Jack was diagnosed with cancer and the many health episodes since that time. It's in the 23rd Psalms where it states: "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." Notice it says through, so that tells me that God is with us always and walks us through whatever we may face. We don't stay in the valley! PTL...

You are such a blessing to so many as I read your blog....

Blessings abundant today and Much Love....

Anonymous said...

Jan, I just read your blogs after being in formed earlier this week of this new journey in your life. You are an amazing woman and tireless servant of God. Cancer is so unfair. I know cancer is no respecter of persons. A little over twenty years ago I had Stage 2 breast cancer. Since then I've been on a mission of faith to walk with anyone in need during their journey. I know you have many doing for you and your family Jan, but I just want to add my "if there is anything I can do, please call on me" to the list. Jan, you are loved and I've added you to my prayer list. Love, Chris Bayless

Lisa M said...

My warrior friend,
We already have the victory over the enemy and this cancer. He may be (like) a roaring lion but you have the Lion of Judah living inside of you. Keep roaring my warrior in pink and we will keep roaring too!! We have the authority over the enemy (lion, cancer) so we take that authority right now and tell it to leave in Jesus name. You are victorious Jan. Sideeffects you have to go in Jesus name. I pray you will rest well and you will have strenghth like never before.
Love you,
Lisa M

scarcarsister said...

Jan, Our boys, Luke and Kenny became friends at AMPED camp this years. Kenny told me about the cancer and even now I write this with tears. I do not know you very well but the time we interacted you were so sweet and kind. I can only believe that you will walk through this in the arms of Jesus. You have touched my family through your son Luke and I bless you in the name of Jesus. Thank you.

Carolyn Scardino

Dianne Bennett said...

Oh Jan,
I am speechless. You are radiant with His beauty. What an inspiration to see you trusting and believing and blessing our Father. He is good and his mercy endures forever. He is good. He is good He is good. You are as a ship with it's sells pitched high grasping for God and letting his wind blow right through you, Rocking you in his loving arms and treasuring you his precious heart. Loving this new found surrender. Keeing your eyes on Daddy God.
I love you so.

Michelle said...

I love you bunches. I was at Pike Place Market in Seattle today and a woman working at a counter looks a lot like you. So I immediately thought of you and began praying. Sending more hugs and warm smiles. - Michelle Wentroble

minda312 said...

Praying today, Jan.

Every time I begin to pray for you- this song keeps coming to my mind and I sing it over and over and over.

"The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud

Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up"



Unknown said...

Oh my sweet, sweet friend.

I'm facing all sorts of life challenges (medical, life, marriage, career) and reading the encouragement and the love in your words today has inspired me.

Jan, you are the Beloved of God, I pray that you never lose sight of that. Even in trials of the most severe kind He loves you overwhelmingly. I read Job through and through - even in the trivial day to day trials. I have so many words on healing and hope. But, I read one a few - Did you know the name Nehemiah means Jehovah Comforts, and I am sure you could use a little comfort about now. :)

5 ‘They come to fight with the Chaldeans, but only to fill their places[a] with the dead bodies of men whom I will slay in My anger and My fury, all for whose wickedness I have hidden My face from this city. 6 Behold, I will bring it health and healing; I will heal them and reveal to them the abundance of peace and truth. 7 And I will cause the captives of Judah and the captives of Israel to return, and will rebuild those places as at the first. (Jeremiah 33:5-7 NKJV)

Okay, not your traditional health and healing verse. BUT... It is a promise God gave me at the first of this year regarding the defeat of the enemies plans for my ailing marriage (we had a "cancer" in our marriage) and the restoration of our marriage and its healing. So... Here is how I read this for you - you are in the fight of your life just like the Jews were against the Chaldeans/Babylonians - only your battle is against cancer.

I read it this way:

"5 ‘They come to fight with the JAN'S CANCER, but only to fill their places with the dead CELLS of CANCER whom I [GOD] will slay in My anger and My fury, ... [I kind of read that like God is angry on your behalf.] 6 Behold, I will bring JAN'S ENTIRE BEING health and healing; I will heal HER and reveal to HER the abundance of peace and truth. 7 And I will cause ALL THE PLACES THE ENEMY DESIRES TO TAKE JAN CAPTIVE IN THIS BATTLE to return, and will rebuild those places as at the first."

Hope this helps. I still stand on Jeremiah 32:27 for you. He is indeed the God of all flesh - nothing, not even the healing of CANCER is too hard or impossible for HIM! By His stripes you, my friend, are already healed.

Love you to pieces and praying for you regularly. LOVE TO YOU.

Unknown said...

Jan - Melynda shared your story w/ me, and I want you to know I'm praying and standing w/ you.

I have a verse to share w/ you - it's Psalm 138:3 from The Message tranlation:

"The moment I called out, You stepped in; You made my life large with strength."

I love that! Your life is LARGE w/ His strength! Love you, sweet lady. :)

Jennifer Anderson