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Wednesday, August 12, 2009


Hi friends,

Thanks for all the sweet calls, texts and notes this week. I'm happy to report that I had a less difficult response to this round of chemo. I didn't get so tired until late Friday night and I could have been up and moving around the house on Monday - except on Monday morning Matthew woke with a sore throat and bad cough. I banished myself back to my room for the rest of the day just to be sure he didn't share his "stuff" with me. I did not get as fatigued this time, but I did develope a urinary tract infection and had to visit the minor emergency clinic on Sunday. I started an antibiotic and all is improving. I was able to return to work on Tuesday with very little trouble. All in all - the easiest round yet!

But I didn't manage myself so well. I was in bed all weekend, but couldn't really rest. I'd feel bad, toss and turn, go to get something to eat or drink, fall back in the bed. I got so tired of just wandering around the room, laying in the bed and clicking the remote. I was restless.

By the time Monday came around and I was forced into my room for another day, I became downright crabby. I really wanted to go lay on the couch! I was pretty much annoyed about any and everything. I'm sure that was nice for my sweet husband and sick children. I find my body did better, but my emotions were worse. I was whiny, cranky and not easily satisified. If I didn't know better, I'd say I was tired and send myself to bed again!

Selfishness is not a good bed partner!

Boston update: My mom in law, Molly, and sister-in-law, Julie, have been in Boston since Sunday evening. My mother in law has done amazingly well and been able to complete three full days of tests and procedures. She did qualify for the drug trial and Julie tells me they have medicene in hand. Although no new information was revealed, they did receive excellent counsel and some good direction for helping my mother in law to regain her weight and strength. They'll return in about 6 months for a follow up. They tell us that within a couple of months we'll be able to tell if she is receiving the real thing or a placebo. Apparently they are confident she'll be able to tell by some improvements in her current symptoms. They travel home in the morning. I'm so proud of them both - real troopers! Thank you for praying for them.

I see my doctor tomorrow for my one week check up! I'll let you know how it goes. In the meantime, praying for the strength, patience and positive attitude to conquer the next two weeks. Football, school, home improvements and doctor visits make for a crazy schedule. I bet you can identify.




The Durham's said...

Still praying for you daily and are loving these great reports! I did not know your mother in law was ill, but we will definitely pray for her too:) You are precious and appreciated and I know He is carrying you....even on the crabby days! HA! Bless you, my sweet friend!

Cindy Kelley said...

Hello Friend,
I certainly can identify and I'm not even having to go to the doctor or feel bad- LOL!!!
I appreciate your transparency, you are such a blessing dear friend!
I have to share something in a quick way without all the detail- DJ will be leaving home on Oct 1, for a year long mission trip...11 countries in eleven months...I'm facing the real challenge of complete surrender and knowing God will take care of Him better than I ever could...I was NOT expecting what I read on his blog tonight, eww so many emotions to go along with all this. If you have a chance please feel free to take a look and follow DJ on this incredible journey, he is a blessing and it is so exciting to see what God is doing in his life.
Praying for your strength, energy and your attitude- tee hee!
link to DJ- http://djkelley.theworldrace.org
Love you!

Anonymous said...

You fight those emotions just because you are human! If you didn't ever have them, you would probably have to be a "robot woman"! (quote from the movie Kicking and Screaming with Will Farrell) Easy to say, yes, but harder to say to yourself!! Continued prayer for you!!Love, Sacha