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Saturday, April 3, 2010

Restoration in progress!

Yesterday I had my first hair salon appointment in 10 months! My little tiny bit of hair seemed enough to justify a shape up and color before Pink Impact. I went dark ... still deciding if I like it better than my gun metal grey and silver that came in naturally! Either way - it's beautiful to me! I so enjoyed everything about my time from the consultation, to the shampoo and finally the trim.

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As she was shampooing my hair I was taken back to two experiences. The day after Mark shaved my head, we made a trip to the Survivor Gals salon for them to take a look at what was left. The sweet ladies there comforted me as I was still so weepy. One of the things they did was put me in the shampoo chair and wash and massage my very tender bald scalp. I remember the lady rubbing my head with some pureology products that smelled good and big tears sliding down the slides of my faces. She just said "It will grow back." That was a hard day.

Second memory - It was my honor to take my sweet friend - Lee Ann - for her first hair cut - post chemo recovery. She waited to trim until hers was about an inch long all over. I picked her up and drove her to another awesome friends home who was a stylists. We laughed and talked and enjoyed the celebration as she had her hair shaped and colored and styled! That was an easy day.

Some days are easy and some days are hard!

You just keep going.

I am so grateful for the will to live that seems to be planted deeply in each of us. There is a sort of persevering, pioneering spirit in us! Press through. Hold on. Try again!

There are rewards for perseverance. You get to places you would have never been and see things you would have never seen. And sometimes you experience pain you wish you could have avoided.

I have decided I would rather have experienced the pain of this season, than not have persevered! Pain is a small price to pay for understanding great joy! It's a small price to pay for knowing the comfort of the Holy Spirit or the victory in Christ Jesus. It's small in comparison to knowing that death has lost it's sting. It is small in comparison to the sacrifice of Jesus.

“Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”- Hebrews 12:2

Let's fix our eyes on Jesus on this Resurrection Day! He arose! So shall we.



Anonymous said...

you look SO beautiful!!!!!!!

Carrie Gant said...

Oh, Amy took my comment. I agree....you look so beautiful and so alive with the joy of the Lord. I love you so very much friend.

Kim Fox said...

Jan I Love it but you are Beautiful in every way It's what's on the inside the love of Jesus that shines so bright ! Love You !

minda312 said...

I cried as I read memory number one. I love you, sweet Jan.

Melissa Aulds said...

I love it! You made me cry when I read about your first memory, but it could be the pregnancy hormones, who knows. Thank you so much for sharing your journey here. I'm so glad to know you better :)

Mary Jo Pierce said...

What a treasure you are! Your words bring tears and laughter and pause ... but then, you have a way of doing that!

"Pain is a small price to pay for understanding great joy!"

Wonder if that was one of HIS thoughts ...

Love, Mary Jo

Jan said...

Thanks for all those very kind comments! Glad you are liking the hair. Isn't it fun to have some hair to be glad about? In 10 days it could be twice as long (a whole 1/2 inch) and be blonde all over. Short equals versatile!

Seriously - you bless me so much! Thanks for the comments. They encourage me and make me smile! Love life with friends like you.

Anonymous said...

I am attending Pink Impact Bravo and can't wait to hear you speak!!!

Melissa Terry said...

You are such a gem and our lives are so much richer because God blessed us with you!

Thank you for your courage to fight and even greater courage to share your fight with all of us.

I adore you and can't wait to see you next week!