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Friday, August 6, 2010

Embarassed

It's been three months since I posted a thing.

Embarassed.

The longer I'm away from this place, the harder it is to get up the courage to come back. I keep thinking I need to explain, or justify, or wait until I have something amazing to say - not just any old thing - but something amazing. Strategized for weeks about how to explain. Procrastinated a thousand times. Distracted at least a million.

This morning I just decided to break the ice. Confess. Begin again.

I want to write. I want to share. Therefore, I'm trying again.

Wondering if anyone will return. Realizing I squandered my momentum. Regretting that I lost the interaction with friends I love so much.

Embarassed.

Not overcome.

Health reports, family updates and spiritual insights to follow. I missed you, Mr. Blog. Coming home again.

xoxo
Jan

9 comments:

minda312 said...

Glad you are back;)!!!

Anonymous said...

Welcome back. I am looking forward to reading about your journey through life for it inspires me.

Linda said...

Totally understand Jan. I love your heart...so precious. I've missed you too! Always here...hugs!

Linnae said...

i was JUST thinking about you. glad you are back =) blessings to you from Going Beyond Ministries!

Holly Smith said...

Glad you are back Jan-we need your story. I missed you at the Merge when you were sick. Is everything okay? You have covered a lot of territory in a short time. Rest my friend unashamed! hugs

Michele Cohen said...

The best writing, in my opinion, is honest writing. It gives the rest of us 'permission' to be human too.
Your blog is engaging and amazing! It's amazing simply because it is honest, and that isn't always easy to find.
I am developing a new passion for 'gut level honest' and a passion for people. The two together are a beautiful thing. No wonder God calls us His treasured possession and gets such a kick out of very single one of us!

bettyellen said...

Missed you! Stop with the embarrasement. I, for one, am glad you had some "living" to do! B

Anonymous said...

So glad to hear from you again! I've been waiting to hear about you and your trip to Israel. Been praying for your health, strength and energy to return.

Anonymous said...

Thanks friends for the encouragement and the comments. You are good friends and awesome women! Jan